I am jealous of my perfect self

I will write a letter to my perfect self. The man who has enough money to do what he wants and does only what he wants to do.

I am so jealous of you my perfect self. You are so decisive and know what you want. And you get everything you want. You don't worry about what everyone wants you to do but, only what you want to do.

You know you are not perfect but, you handle it perfectly. You still have anxiety and you know you are OK. You know you make mistakes and are fine with that and I obsess about my mistakes or perceived mistakes. I am so jealous. I hope I can be like you someday.